Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Matt Chandler

Thanksgiving day I got a message on facebook that Matt Chandler, pastor at The Village Church, had experienced a seizure and was in the hospital. Over the next few days I prayed. I encouraged others to pray. I worried. I fretted. As more news came in, especially today, and we find this man of God with cancer in his brain, a strange thing has occurred again. I am heart broken.

I know this seems like a proper response. Something scary happens. Something sad happens. A great man who loves our Lord, has young children and a thriving church faces something so grave and it breaks my heart, seems normal. What is not normal is the fact that I have never met this man. Not once. I have never been to his church, never spoke with him or his family. But my heart is HEAVY. I am deeply troubled by this, all for a man I have never met. But he is my minister.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Saturday, December 5, 2009

1 Corinthians 15:10


But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace toward me was not in vain. On the contrary, I worked harder than any of them, though it was not I, but the grace of God that is with me.- 1Corinthians 15:10

I have been studying 1 Corinthians for a few days. This verse in Chapter 15, I read this morning and it really spoke to me.
First, "by the grace of God I am what I am". I have heard it said(Spurgeon I think) that the Christian life is all of grace. This fact is so lost on us so very often. The Puritans got it and maybe that is why I love them so. Edwards taught so passionately that the only reason you are not engulfed in the fires of hell this very moment is because of God's grace. The only reason I don't wake up with a chronic pain, the only reason I have a family, the only reason I can read and write, the only reason I have a roof and a shirt, the only reason I have food in the kitchen, the only reason I have air to breath, the only reason I don't have cancer or AIDS, the only reason I have faith, the only reason I am saved, the only reason I love Jesus is because of grace. "But by the grace of God I am, what I am".

Friday, December 4, 2009

The Journey Starts Here

What drives me? This is the question that has been in my head lately. This is the question that has confronted me and convicted me over the past few months. What drives me? What motivates me? Why do I do what I do?

I know what I am supposed to say. JESUS. To see the lost saved. To see God glorified. To know Him and make Him known. To enjoy God above all else. JESUS.

But when I am honest, this is not the answer. When the truth comes into view, then these answers-as true as they should be- are nothing more than lip service.

Most days, my own comfort, my own convenience, my own pleasure, my own desire to avoid confrontation and hardship--this is what drives me. I can tell by my actions. I can tell by my desire to sleep in, to eat extra and to reach out to none. I can tell by my heart, by my yearnings, by my attitudes. I get more offended when I am inconvenienced than when the Gospel is attacked. I spend more time filling my plate than praying for the hungry. I am more concerned with my facebook, than spending time with my wife, my kids or my God. Comfort, leisure, entertainment, convenience--this drives me on most days.

On good days-which seem to be few and far between), what drives me is my beautiful wife. Loving her and helping her and enjoying her. My kids-Will and his brains, Renato and his heart and Avryn and his grin-these boys who are flesh of my flesh, these boys whom God has place in my care to grow into men, these boys who trust me and idolize me and who will gain their perspective on God fromme--these boys drive me. Caring for my family. This drives me.

And then there are those days. Those days that come once in a blue moon(I have no idea what that idiom refers to). Those days that I seem to "get it"-God drives me. God is why I exist. Whether it is uncomfortable, scary, confrontational-whatever- God drives me. It has become my goal for this to be everyday. This blog will be me sharing from Scripture; from great men of God and from lessons I am learning- but mostly it will be me being accountable. Me telling the world that I want God to be first in my life, first in my affections. Before my self, before my wife, before my babies, before my momma, before my success--I want God to drive me. I want to be His completely. The journey starts here.